Go to Ashley's blog to see what she and I did last weekend I have had so many follow-up thoughts to my imperfection post. I may need to do another post. Really, I could talk all day about divorce..what a fun topic! Thank you for the kind comments, emails, facebook messages and calls. I think the comments I got on this last post were my best ever..so heartfelt and meaningful. I love blogging about "the silly" and I will continue to do that because it keeps me sane. But I think I love blogging about real life/trials/happiness more. Believe it or not, those posts are the easiest for me to write because I write from my heart. The words just pour out and I think those posts are powerful because they carry the weight of truth and authenticity...or maybe you all are just nosy about my divorce...either way, my divorce posts seem to be popular.
I guess I want to say that I know I've got it pretty good. Even my divorce is good. My "ex" (I hate that word) is a great guy. He shows up, he pays, he takes my kids on vacations and helps with homework and coaches soccer. He drives me to the airport and puts new tires on my car when I'm out of town. He fixes things at my house while I'm gone. I am lucky. It sounds silly but I thank Heavenly Father every night for a good divorce and for Sam.
That said, Divorce is still hard. Worrying about making ends meet is hard. Sleeping in a big bed alone is hard. Dating with kids is hard. Traveling alone is hard. Seeing my sister with her cute husband is hard. Wondering if I will ever get remarried is hard. Going to the temple alone is hard. Mowing the lawn is going to be hard.
Me, alone with my boys at Disneyland...post still coming
But there are some things that are easier. I get nights off all to myself. I get Saturdays off. I get to go out to nice restaurants and have someone else pay. I get nice compliments from men. I get to do new things that I haven't been able to do before. I get to spend more one on one time with each kid when Sam takes the other ones. I get to manage my own money and not answer to anyone. I get to leave the house a mess. I get to not cook. I get more closet space and drawer space and all the covers. I get to be the boss and I like being the boss. But sometimes I want to be the queen instead.
Now go check out my fun weekend at Ashley's where I was treated like a queen...massage, shamrock shake, shopping, fine dining (Hi Kaari!) and great conversation!
ps. I have tried to write a dating post at least 10 times. It makes me nervous to talk about dating on my blog. I don't know why. Maybe it feels too personal. Maybe I just don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. But I am still working on it. Dating has been a wild ride. It was a little too much too soon so I have been taking a break from dating the last month and probably will for another couple months or so. Hopefully, I wll get something together for you soon!