Friday, December 18, 2009

Boy oh Boy!


I'm having another boy....

I'm only 15 weeks but because we are still on the insurance from Sam's old company ie. the world's crappiest insurance, I wasn't going to be able to get an ultasound until sometime in February when our new insurance kicked in. So Sam insisted we head down to Fetal Studio (an ultrasound place in the mall--I know--only in Utah!) and find out what we are having.

So we did and I saw it before the tech even told me. So did Sam. Another boy. I was going to try to put up a good front for the blog and just announce it and let the congrats roll in. But to be completely honest, this has been a little hard for me. I really thought this was a girl, I wanted another girl and I wanted Sammie to have a sister.

Sammie took the news really well, better than I thought. She just keeps saying under her breath "We wanted a girl and we're getting another boy...."

I'm embarrassed for being even a little disappointed because 1) I have three healthy kids already 2) I already have a girl and 3) every child is a gift and I know when he gets here I will fall madly in love with him.


Ryan 6 weeks

The hardest part is that Sammie has been an absolute joy lately. I think four is the best age ever and she is the sweetest, cutest four year old around. I would love to have another Sammie and let her wear all of the clothes that I've spent literally thousands of dollars on (some still with the tags that were bought for this baby.)

But you know what? All of that is just stuff. It can be passed on to my sister when she has a baby girl, or my sister-in-law, or sold but Ryan will have a little buddy forever and Luke has been such a good, sweet, easy boy, that maybe I will just beg Heavenly Father a little for another Luke (but maybe with Ryan's dimples.)


Me and my boys circa 2008

We'll just do a little more basketball and a little less ballet. There will be more urine around the toilet and less clothes to buy, more transformers and less Barbies. More jokes and less drama. Another girl just wasn't in the cards for me. But I'm okay with that.

Tomorrow I will finally post my "I hate Tiger" post that has been in my brain forever.

32 comments:

Melissa Walker said...

Some of the Walker home felt the same way when girl #3 was on the way--namely Matthew. He said we needed to keep going until we had another boy. We are actually getting a bit worried about having 3 teenage girls in the house when Matthew goes off to college--no testosterone to balance it out! Congratulations though--you will have another wonderful child and when he gets here, you'll wonder why you thought you wanted a girl!

Jen (and her men) said...

Brooke, your sweet comments made me cry. I am totally the wrong person to give advice on this subject, but I love boys. I totally believe that given the choice, I would choose boys all over again. It was hard for me the first two times when I just KNEW my babies were girls and then they weren't. But the last two times I have realized how blessed I am to be a mother of boys. To be entrusted with the Lord's sweet boys, to raise them to be righteous priesthood holders and to be awesome missionaries is such a privilege. And boys love their mommas. You are right though, as soon as this boy comes, you'll love him like nothing else and won't be able to imagine life before him. But take this moment. It's okay. You're human. And you will have to clean up more urine. That's definitely something to be sad about!

Heather said...

I don't have any...and I would love to have any baby human so I can't really relate to wanting one or the other. You can read Sammie that story from the New Era circa 1989 where the only girl in the family goes on her first date...with her brothers. It's pretty cute and made me want to be the only girl :)

Lisa Cannon said...

I don't even feel bad for you! :) I felt the same way. I was sad with Henry because I really wanted a girl. Now, I love him to pieces and I know he is meant to be in our family. I couldn't imagine life without him. You'll feel the same way. Now you just need to think of another boy name. I vote Charlie. I couldn't do that one because my nephew is Charlie. I love it!


Boys do love their moms!!!

leandparkermakes3 said...

Oh Brooke. I'm excited for you. My boys are loud and crazy, but I think you're right, the drama wont be quite as high around here as the house I grew up in! Congratulations and call Darla. She is having a boy too and trying to come to terms with it!

Liz said...

Your boys are adorable....I even saw the cutest boy knit hat at the mall today that I wanted to get you, but it would have been too hot for a baby in June. It takes a special person to be a mom of boys. You are just that person!

Feel free to borrow Macy when Sammie wants a little sister!

Natalie said...

oh brooke! i am in the same boat and feeling guilty about the disappointment....i was so sure it was a girl! fun that you got to find out so soon, though! we'll get over it once we see their cute faces.

Terra said...

Congratulations! I wanted a boy and all my friends got them instead...oh well!!!

Jill said...

Your feelings are totally understandable, especially since you are best friends with your own sister, how could you NOT want Sammie to have a sister too?

Jill Tew said...

Oh Darla and Brooke...I'm glad you can relate to each other. :) Hopefully it will make you feel better until you fall madly in love with your new sons.

Having 3 boys is great. And at least the hand-me-downs won't go out of style as quickly...Though they don't always make it to the 3rd boy...:)

But I'm with Jen, you can be just as connected to your boys as your girls...

And at least they don't shed as much!

alexandra said...

I know how you feel (I was hoping for a girl this time, too), but I think you are totally right in reminding yourself of all the blessings of a boy. Especially that Ryan gets a brother right next to him. That is such a big deal. If the baby had been a girl, she and her sister would have been pretty separated by age.

That photo of Ryan is totally adorable, btw.

The hardest part about boys is naming them.

Amy M. said...

Like I already said, I get it. As someone with boy-girl-boy (and wanting another girl)I can imagine how it would feel. But you WILL, as you already know, fall madly in love with your baby boy and be so glad you had HIM.
Congratulations!

Amy said...

You know why I love you. Because you just say it like it is! I was disappointed when Kennedy was a girl. Girls are HARD! Lots of drama, and emotions, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. Now you can just really focus your one and only girl energy into Sammie, and spoil her rotten! (like she already isn't). I for one, am a little jealous that you got all the boys! Congrats, and I can't wait to see him.

samantha said...

aww, brooke i know it must be hard for you. when i found out was pregnant with my last daughter, i longed for a boy. when i found out she was not a he, i will admit i was crushed. but when she was here i knew it was right for our family. you will have that feeling once he is here and everything clicks into place.

and look on the bright side, now sammie can get even more fun girly goodness!

Linde said...

If we could only plan our lives...ha-ha...while I have wished for things, I'm glad the Lord gave me what I have. That being said, I can understand what you mean about wanting another girl. You'll love the boy, but it is still just a little hard.

Lauri said...

Girls, schmirls....they are cute, fun to dress, have cute hair and lots of accessories...but just think of all the drama, tears, tantrums etc. that you will miss, oh how i could go on! Boys, schmoys....it will be GREAT!!

(I really do love my THREE girls, really I do!!)

:)

Laura B. said...

There is no shame about being disappointed. I was devestated that Claire and Grace were girls. I knew I was supposed to have a boy. We even had the name. Each time I would buy a cute sweater vest and "little man" clothes in the hopes that they were wrong and it came out a boy.
They were always right and now pink reigns supreme at our house. So you'll just have to embrace buying the cute Little Man clothes and I'll embrace the Pink.
Congratulations though! You do boys (and girls) well!!!

HAPPYHANERHOME said...

Congratulations and I hear ya. Since we lead parallel lives, I would not be one bit surprised if I am with boy as well...and I will feel EXACTLY the same way. My Kya (age four) is the same way as Sammie right now...it's a good age. My boys are sweet and very close to my heart too though, so either way, it will be a blessing--and exactly what our Heavenly Father had planned for us all along I figure.

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Ashley said...

It's disappointing that you are having a boy. It's still a wonderful thing and you are so lucky to be able to have healthy kids, but you expected a girl and this is your time to mourn her. You'll have the rest of your life to feel grateful for your (freaking!) THIRD boy.

So I mentioned Sammie and the boys could be Goldilocks and the 3 bears. . . but there's also Dorothy and the Lion, Scarecrow, and Tin Man (Luke would make a great Tin Man). So there's that. At least there's that.

Toria said...

OK- I haven't had time to read the other comments, so first off- Congratulations. 2nd- your family is the same genders/ birth order as the family I grew up in (I'm 2nd child with 1 older brother 2 younger).
Then, when my youngest brother was 5, someone who was pregnant with a girl, asked my mom if she was done and she said yes, followed by "BUT, if I could have a girl, I might consider one more" Sure enough my mom had a surprise pregnancy with my little sister (10 years younger than me). My mom is convinced it's because she made that statement in the church parking lot!
I say- go for 5 or 6 kids- problem solved!
unless of course they are boys too.
Then Sammy has it made- she's guaranteed to be spoiled forever!

Toria said...

oh and I think you're totally normal. Maybe it has something to do with us wanting for our kids, what we had (you have a sister close in age/ stage of life) which is so so fun.
I just love that you keep it real and honest.
and
i'm sorry I spelled Sammie wrong.

The Mostess said...

You lost me at The Fetal Studio in the mall. I'm going to pretend that you are kidding about that one so we can still party it up in CA whilst dining over Fuel. PS--SO EXCITED FOR THAT!!

Okay--the thing I love about you/your blog is that you are always honest and open. I have enough glossy blogs to read through--I need the ones where people are real, and the stories are legit. So, thank you for that.

And, yes, you have 3 wonderful children that are happy (mostly) and healthy. That doesn't mean you can't be disappointed about not having another girl. You can! And with a sister like Ashley, I totally get it. I love my sister, and we're so close.

That being said, what's meant to be is what's meant to be...and you will love him more than you can even imagine. Congrats again! ;)

Kimmie said...

Oh Brookie, you make such adorable BOYS! and now you and Sammie will always have that special little momma/daughter bond all to yourselves! and Ashley cracks me up...if someone didn't know she was your totally hilarious sister giving you a hard time......?????

sarahw said...

Wow!! I can't believe you found out sooo early. What a surprise! A girl would have been utterly perfect, especially for Sammie, but you do produce THE cutest boys. I can't wait to see all of them.

lindsey said...

I love this post! I am so excited that you are having a boy too! I have to (secretly) admit I was just a teensy bit disappointed when my Dad told us it was a boy. I was really hoping to ease into motherhood with a girl! I know what to do with girls!!! But now I am excited and every friend/sister who has boys has CUTE boys so I know it will be fun.

And really, just as long as they are healthy and strong.

But I really wanted all of Shelly's baby girl clothes!!!!

Elizabeth said...

Congratulations on having another handsome gorgeous sweet boy! Ashley is right on when she said its your time to mourn for the girl... acknowledging the disappointment for the pink doesn't diminish the joy in any way for the blue...

Jaime said...

Yeah for boys! I am thrilled for you and in awe that you are up for a fourth child. You get nothing but respect from me.

I totally relate to your initial bummer. I know it was brief, but it was nonethless real! When we saw that one of the twins was a girl, it was a huge elation for both of us. And she hasn't disappointed us yet - well, none of the kids have. And I was thrilled J got a little bro. and the fact that I could be done with pregnancy.

Irony will prevail and I am sure this little man in the oven is going to knock you socks off. We can't wait to meet him and love him up!

I also think pregnancy is the perfect, and acceptable, excuse for all questionable social behavior. Live it up! Say all those random uninhibited cracks you keep for rainy days.

nic said...

I can't believe you are having a little boy. He will be so fun and you are going to love him. Sammie he just have to still be the Princess.

sheryl said...

ahhhh! I am so excited for you! I love boys! (However, I had a blessing dress for Scott all made.) I was sooo glad I had Ben first before they put me under so I knew I had that instant love a mother feels at delivery! Everyone thought I would be so thrilled for a girl...and I was but I would not trade one of my boys for another girl!

marta said...

hooray for another boy. now sammie can be the forever princess who gets to come on mommy and daughter dates to plays and shopping sprees. she has no idea how good it's gonna be with no sharing/fighting over clothes and makeup.

merry christmas to you and the whole gang. your posts always make me happy. and what do we think of the new 'pilot' bachelor!? i'm worried he's not cute enough. or tan enough, for that matter. to be on a reality show.. you've got to be really tan! am i right?!

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